kaya butter toast

PMS

That is the word for it. That is the reason for it. That is the most evil thing on earth!
It makes you feel like shit. It makes you cannot sleep. It makes you easily irritated.

Earlier, I got pissed of with 'you know who' (not revealing this.. so no need to ask). Then a bloody aunty poured oil into fire by pissing me off further. Making false accusation and trying to cheat my money! Bloody OLD crook!! I don't want to waste my time ranting about both of it here. Waste of space and time. Just a simple note to remind me of 'why i shouldn't be so nice to idiots' it in the future will do.

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There's something which is a bigger and more serious thing which is going on in my mind now. When i heard about it, i couldn't sleep the whole of last night! Something really exciting... And i was thrilled to hear about it. Or rather too shocking for the humble me to accept and i needed time to digest to think about it.

I couldn't make a decision on the spot because of....LOVE! HAAHAHAHAH *i am shy to admit it but....I never expected myself to have problem deciding due to LOVE!! OMG! Laugh at me all you want... I don't care. I have always acted for the benefit of myself and this time, I DIDN'T! OMG! What is happening to me? ~the power of love~perhaps?

Many of times, the older generations and more experienced ones have given countless valuable advices and one of it is not to be so stupid to sacrifice for love! However they say it, i don't see it practiced by them! They say it when they regretted their decision. But on a sweeter note, there are also some who sacrificed and it was worth it after all... 50:50 / Big or Small???

I don't know what to choose. I don't know how to choose.

I don't know.

I don't know.

Its like dividing myself to half. ~just like kaya butter toast...
Half of me wants the best for myself NOW! I crave for the excitement and challenge. ~ butter side
Another half of me wants the best for the person i love.. that makes me H.A.P.P.Y.!!!! ~ kaya side
I know, in life, we cannot have the best of both worlds, but life means endless possibilities. ~well, there's kaya butter toast kan??~
Many things in life are not fated. Its a choice we made by taking chances.
Happiness is a choice we make.

I could be wrong. I could be right. I have not decided yet...
Once i made the decision, i guess there'll be no turning back. *thinking *thinking really hard

Life is always a gamble.
You win some, you lose some.
Most importantly, is to enjoy the journey along the way.