dup...dup...dup...

i got a call.
i heard a news that i wasn't happy to hear.
it's not a confirmed thing.
but there is a chance for it to happen.
i do not want it to happen.
i want it to be as planned.
my mind starts to wonder.
my spirit is shaken.
my direction is lost.
am falling into the negative pit.
STOPPPPPP!!!!!!
*slaps myself
nothing is happening yet.
all i should do is pray.
pray that the outcome will be something happy.